Sunday, March 04, 2007

@ 11:57 PM

he deleted the pics in friendster.....he did....
i thought he would delete them off one by one...
but he deleted them all at one go........only leaving those that seem like 'friends only'
y do i care so much,y do i fuss so much.......i dont noe...
i look at all e photos in my profile and dont even noe hw to delete them...
even those which has turn to a grey question mark pic because i grabbed them from him...
i tried to delete..i cant even click the delete icon......
yes...its only pics
yes.......for wad i done he has already done a lot for me....he has already been very nice very patience...he dont need to be here......he could/should just walk away or kick me away...
i noe.......all this i noe....
but that doen't stop my heart for tearing into million pieces.....
maybe i dont even have a heart.....for wad i had done........
i really did felt for him.....did have real feelings for him...my tear are not just tears......it really did hurt...its like the inside of me is being stabbed and stabbed again......
i really want him to be happy.....i really dont want to bother him....but it sometimes hurt so much that i could only think about myself
my mother is right......i'm a selfish person...
and maybe he is right i'm always think i'm right,always not considering for others...
but it is so depressing to think that you are a slut that you are dirty..
i did wrong..........i admit it....i really did wrong.....even i was to suffer it was because i ruin myself......and him......
i so wanted to give him a great relationship......so wanted to make up for the hurt he had experience before our relationship.....but wad had i done.....i made it even worse for him.....

Sunday, March 04, 2007

@ 11:57 PM

he deleted the pics in friendster.....he did....
i thought he would delete them off one by one...
but he deleted them all at one go........only leaving those that seem like 'friends only'
y do i care so much,y do i fuss so much.......i dont noe...
i look at all e photos in my profile and dont even noe hw to delete them...
even those which has turn to a grey question mark pic because i grabbed them from him...
i tried to delete..i cant even click the delete icon......
yes...its only pics
yes.......for wad i done he has already done a lot for me....he has already been very nice very patience...he dont need to be here......he could/should just walk away or kick me away...
i noe.......all this i noe....
but that doen't stop my heart for tearing into million pieces.....
maybe i dont even have a heart.....for wad i had done........
i really did felt for him.....did have real feelings for him...my tear are not just tears......it really did hurt...its like the inside of me is being stabbed and stabbed again......
i really want him to be happy.....i really dont want to bother him....but it sometimes hurt so much that i could only think about myself
my mother is right......i'm a selfish person...
and maybe he is right i'm always think i'm right,always not considering for others...
but it is so depressing to think that you are a slut that you are dirty..
i did wrong..........i admit it....i really did wrong.....even i was to suffer it was because i ruin myself......and him......
i so wanted to give him a great relationship......so wanted to make up for the hurt he had experience before our relationship.....but wad had i done.....i made it even worse for him.....